THIS IS ME ♡

hey. Today is my mom birthday. You know what, when my brother wished her, she just said 'hm'. she's very sad cause my dad wasnt here to celebrate her birthday. I really want to say to her "enjoy your day" but i cant. I felt her. Cause last year my dad wasnt there when my birthday. And i know what she feel. It hurts so much. I wish all of this just a nightmare & dream for me but then hm people said reality is cruel. And yeah its true. I wish i can hug him & tell him how much i want him back. Am i a good daughter when he was here? I just wish that he could take me with him but then i realized that i'm being too much. I cant bear with it anymore. Srsly i need them right now. I just cant... Can i have my dad back? Can i get a hug from him? Can i get a kiss from him? Can i hear he say that i'm his lovely princess? Can i have all that? Even for once.. can i? I've been through alot eventho i'm still young. I just want to be happy again. Dad, can you come back? I miss you so much & i cant beat with it anymore. It hurts dad it hurts. I can feel my heart broken into pieces & so does my happiness.

And hey dad, we're getting ready to your grave. Cant wait to see you there! Iloveyouuu ♥♥♥

((I wish i was strong enough, i'm sorry dad))