hey. Today is my mom birthday. You know what, when my brother wished her, she just said 'hm'. she's very sad cause my dad wasnt here to celebrate her birthday. I really want to say to her "enjoy your day" but i cant. I felt her. Cause last year my dad wasnt there when my birthday. And i know what she feel. It hurts so much. I wish all of this just a nightmare & dream for me but then hm people said reality is cruel. And yeah its true. I wish i can hug him & tell him how much i want him back. Am i a good daughter when he was here? I just wish that he could take me with him but then i realized that i'm being too much. I cant bear with it anymore. Srsly i need them right now. I just cant... Can i have my dad back? Can i get a hug from him? Can i get a kiss from him? Can i hear he say that i'm his lovely princess? Can i have all that? Even for once.. can i? I've been through alot eventho i'm still young. I just want to be happy again. Dad, can you come back? I miss you so much & i cant beat with it anymore. It hurts dad it hurts. I can feel my heart broken into pieces & so does my happiness.

And hey dad, we're getting ready to your grave. Cant wait to see you there! Iloveyouuu ♥♥♥

((I wish i was strong enough, i'm sorry dad))

This is so sad

Hello i'm back! Ok harini pergi keluar jejalan dkt wangsa walk dgn ibu & ipan. Pastu time makan my mom said "perfume yg ibu beli tadi tu kira sebagai present for birthday ibu. Hari ahad ni jgn wish or cakap ape ape" & i was like "takkan wish pun tak boleh? Kan birthday ibu" my mom said "ibu taknak ingat, korang diam je nanti jgn kecoh tau".

The reason my mom said like that cause dia taknak ingat, nanti dia sedih. My father takde nak celebrate. I feel u mom. It hurts alot. When i heard my mom said like that, my heart broke into pieces. Rasa nak nangis dkt situ tapi tahan je. How strong my mom is. Dia taknak tunjuk kesedihan dia dkt anak anak dia. Whatever is, i'm still gonna wish her this sunday. Sekali dalam setahun. Mom iloveyousomuchhh xo

I'm back!

Yaw ssup! Ok i'm backkkkkkk! Finally school holidays yehettttt ~ bestnya hidup cuti 9 hari without homework he he he. And before cuti, kan ade ujian bulanan mac, hm boleh tahan ah semua soalan dia tapi geo & sej memang pasrah gila lagi lagi geo T.T haih mengapa realiti begitu perit tsk tsk hahahaha ok merepek yang penting kita enjoy! Annyeong ~ ^^

Exam

Ssup! Ok nampak tak title tu? its about EX(O)AM. Eh kidding only. Its about EXAM. Rabu until Jumaat cyberians akan berhempas pulas for exam u.u aku tak bitau lagi dkt ibu huhu nanti kena ceramah pulaaaa. So kena start study hm kemalasan dia hanya Allah je yg tahu. Wish me lucl guys! May Allah ease everything xoxo

Doppleganger? .-.

Ssup! Ok nampak tak tajuk tu? Act perkataan tu asal dari novel english form 3; how i met myself. K takde kena mengena. Ade sorang classmate aku ni, biar aku gelarkan dia sebagai mon. Ok jgn gelak. Mon ni ade persamaan mcm adik lapis aku, Ameen Azraf Azman. Ya Allah rindunya dkt diaaaaa ;( Mon ni pengawas sekolah, pastu jdi PA system, pandai main bola, suka kacau orang. Sebijik mcm adik lapis. Tapi mon putih sikit lol sorry meen *-* aish bila la dpt jumpa dia & boleh main ku ci pang dgn dia lagi haih rindu gila. Agak agak dia ingat lagi tak dkt akak kecik dia ni? Ha ha ha k apekah lol. Ok thats all. Bogoshippeo adik lapis & HIRANA ♥

Tears

I'm back. Hm mental breakdown rn. I let my tears fell down. Who cares? Ha ha ha. Penat la nak pendam. Sakit tahu sakit? Since my dad passed away, i'm already gave up on my happiness tbh. Ok i dont want to tell others abt this cause they will be like "stay strong" & do you know how much i've been strong? Do you know how much i want to give up? penat sangat. Sakit sangat. I still wonder why i'm still trapped in the past. People said "move on" but how i can do that if i'm still trapped? How empty my heart when my dad left me. I'm tired to fake a smile & happiness on my face. Tired pretend to be happy but deep in my heart i'm sad, broken & hm. People dont understand me... how i miss my dad so much. I just want him by my side rn & say "how's my princess?". Ergh fck this tears! Pfft dont mencarut! Damn damn can this tears stop falling down? I'm used to be a happy girl ha ha ha. How awesome i am cause i can smile & happy like nothing happen every morning & start crying at night. Good job dearself (y) stay strong. Hwaiting! //wipe tears//

Kkaeb song ~

Yaw! Ok i dont know why i'm so rajin nak update post bnyk benda skrng ni. Ok ok ok carik ilham jap.. /krik krik/

Seriously i hope that i can learn dance. Not yg tarian zapin or melayu ke ape ke but its more to hiphop, ballet & jazz. And also learn vocal. High note, low note. Merepek apekah? Teringin ah juga nak jadi dancing machine & vocal line aHAHAHAHA ceh impian tinggi menggunung gitu peh peh. Tak salah en ade impian? Ohorat ~*

Before aku habiskan post ni, lemme give you my sweetheart(s) pic ^^

My love, my life; EXO ♥



Annyeong ;;